I go for days and days lately feeling stable. Accepting challenges, rolling with the punches, feeling competent at work and balanced in my approach to life. I think about interests to pursue, and maybe making some changes in my diet.
And then in one weekend I feel like all that positive change has gone right out the window.
I missed just one Wellbutrin, on Friday afternoon. Saturday afternoon I was a mess. I was better by Saturday night, but this evening I messed up a shortcake for strawberry shortcake and I still haven’t quite recovered.
I swear it’s related to my menstrual cycle. What the hell is a woman my age still doing having regular periods? I ought to be so over this…I’m 45! But according to a website I read yesterday, the average age of onset of true menopause (as opposed to the warm-up known as perimenopause, with its reduced hormone levels, leeching of calcium from the bones, hot flashes, vaginal dryness and horrific mood swings) is 52. Which means I have seven more years of this to look forward to.
There’s hope, Ann! I started menopause at 39 and have been post for a few years now. Short and sweet. Have an FHT (follicle hormone test) done to see where you are at. You may be closer than you think.
You seem so confident, stable and solid that I have a difficult time ever imagining you otherwise.
Here wishing for happy days your way, Ann.